Monday, August 14, 2006 8:53 PM
Nothing overly-emotional today I guess. It WASN'T a good day for me- stomachache from morning till afternoon, loose skirt, humid weather, boring lessons, headache, etcetc. I have memorised a few key classification charts in science, hopefully I am all ready for the prelims. I am going ot source some questions to practise and after that, probably just a quick glance through science. That would bring me to the end of tommorow- Tuesday. A few more days left, somehow, my heart is not feeling nervous, AT ALL!
I am reading it as an omen, please, do not let me get complacent at this critical period. I NEED to do well for prelims. Maybe you all will think that if I do badly for prelims I would work even harder for PSLE, but no, for me, it is opposite. If I do badly for prelims, my confidence would be shattered beyond repair, especially in english compo. I cannot bear to "lose it" in english composition again. It had took me a direction-less time and 5 thick, inspiring books to get back on track, at least regain the momentem for english composition. No, I won't want to lose it again, especially when I am not sure I am able to get it back within the short time.
And most of all, my most treasured style in chinese essay-writing. I do not want it to get lost again. My current way of writing has finally, finally, escaped the primary school range of vocabulary. Well, I do not think I am the only one who have done so, and it is not always a good thing to do. Yet, I have an intuition I can do well if I use this new advancement well, hopefully I do. It is a new style where I do not use a single "jia ju" at all and yet is able to engage the reader and convey emotions much better than using cliched phrases. This style was evoked by one of my P1 teachers' words(in chinese) : "At your stage, use as many jia jus as you can, but as you grow up and out of Primary School, you will find that the less jia jus there are, the better an essay is. " Somehow, I think many of us in Primary School use jia jus, and this style was made up to make my essay more unique. Ha but I know it is more risky, especially if i m not in the mood on that day. The compo I received today, I was quite pissed in losing to YJ and Chan wei who both got 35. I got an effing 34. But yet I cannot believe it, I really did not get any ticks for jia jus except one or two and those little ticks at the end of every paragraph which everyone gets. And yet cls said that the more ticks there are the more marks you will get. Andy got 25 ticks, I only ot about 6-8, and we got the same marks. Is that meant to be good or bad? Hopefully she will tell me when we go through she goes through the compo individually with me tommorow.
I do not do not want to get complacent, and yet it is sometimes beyond beyond beyond my control! )))): omgomgomg, please help me, the one who will help me when I need help, the one who always comes to me in times of trouble. (I was not referring to supernatural powers, don ask any further) Currently I am listening to the new song in David Tao's new album. Wow, it is quite nice really. Though I have never liked his face, his voice is not bad. Afteral, I heard so many of his songs last time without knowing they were his songs.
One more thing, to all those who love to make comments about other people's families, please mind your own businesses, you know who you are. Firstly, it is not your right to speak freely of what does not concern you. Secondly, other people may have their own problems in their families that you do not know of, and are not supposed to know of. PLEASE, do not jump to conclusions. At least, spare others the torture of hearing your groundless comments. Even if you have a right to comment, it is none of your business. Do I sound pissed? I am, because I just heard someone doing the above on someone else's family whom we are not even very close to. I guess I must learn to tolerate people of different personalities. Well, I had kept silent durin his/her "comment" (a rather long one). "Silence is golden" That is the good ol' adage for the day? week? year? century? decade? lolx. (((:
