Tuesday, October 24, 2006 3:18 PM
new skin! I am sorry for those who have told me to post post post post post. I honestly do not see how the absense of posts in this highly un-visited blog of mine will affect the biorhythms of all of your bodies. But crap aside, I shall finally, POST!
It has been highly boring. I have taken the initiative to change the skin. I have wanted for decades to experience a new feel. I once said I hated navigation skins and preffered endless scroll. For those who do not know what these mean, my current skin is called navigation, and my old one is called endless-scroll. Rather obvious as the name suggests. But I found this skin decent-looking. It should be fine I guess.
As I said, it has been boring. I shall not rant more on that. Everyone knows it has been boring. But instead, I shall rant about my newly-found interest. I have never found anything special about english writing. I have enjoyed english books far more than chinese books, true, but the 'art' in itself has never appealed to me as much as the latter has. All of a sudden, english writing has appealed to me...
I am taking it as a good sign, I know my english writing may never be as good as my chinese writing, but this new-found passion can only do me good. I mean it will definitely help me alot. This year has given me so many writer's blocks. Hopefully with this passion, I will be rid of those uninvited guests.
Okay, for now I want to be that crazy little girl next-door. I realise I have been thinking alot of what I want to do when I grow up. However, I am always being wound down by the possibility that I will not be the cream of the crop in my field and not be sucessful. Of course there will be people like that, anf I do not want to be one of them. But the thing is that I know I am not the best now and I do not think I will ever be the best. But the point is, do I need to be the best?
I guess for now the answer i no. Though i am positively sure that my competitive nature will change that answer in the years to come. But that is the future. I do not want to think of that now. I shall think of the present and not have tenses-malfunction.
I know alot of us are sad about going seperate ways after about 20 more days from now. I mean we knew we would go to different schools and I guess we are all prepared for it. Almost all of us will do quite well in the school of our choice I suppose. I am also a little sad about parting. But sadness will not prevent it. And of course we will still keep in touch. so all I want to do is wish everyone the best.
I know I am not the only one who has lofty aspirations, that almost all my classmates has an ambition and will want nothing more than to acheive it. No doubt most of you will, I think that I wil do fine, whether or not I acheive my 1 unatainable dream, I will still survive. For that, I am glad and contented. But of course, that 1 nearly unattainable dream ould be best if it can be attained. soar to the skies of freedom and be the best we can be. Yes, for now, I believe that that does not only exist in melodramatic fairy tales.
