Friday, November 24, 2006 4:42 PM
I am still recovering from shock, still reminding myself that I did better than expected though worse than hoped. cos hope and expect is totally different. I mean, everyone hopes for 300 la but not everyone expects that much.
I can actually still remember that yesterday morning I was feeling a little chilly and perhaps freaked out. All of you commanded me to blog happily, but sometimes I sound weird being happy. Visually I look ok being happy but not in words. I just sound totally lame. Oh well, as everyone said, we were all shocked at the results yesterday. Me too, but more shocked at nanyang and gep than myself.
To call it
the results day is a little too far-fetched I think. It makes it so special, when actually. We all already got in to the schools, well most of us. The results are just an indication of what we have done, what we are capable of doing, in the academic aspect. So maybe, it is just a day of
knowing. Actually, throughout the whole long talk given by mdm heng, of which they call resutls analysis, I only wanted to see the top scorers slide. Or rather, I was sincerely hoping I would be in that. I wanted it so so so so bad, so bad that I dono how bad i wanted it. For an entire year I had been working for having my name being among the 12 names on that slide, even if it was only in font size 24, even if mine wasn't the one at the top or the only one on the slide.
I really wanted it alot alot. I wondered if divine intervention would help, so in those last few moments I wasn't really nervous. Instead, I just interlocked my fingers to pray to every single god there is in that vast sky I call my home. Perhaps they can afford to offer some of their divine power to this neighbour of theirs.
Then when it came, I was shocked. Seriously. The top scorers were mainstreams, perhaps because alot of us already got in to schools. But I think aidi also got in to somewhere, I mean she definitely could if she tried, which I think she would have. And she was top. Congratulations. I am not despising mainstreams, I am just disapointed in ourselves, since last few yeares its been geps that got it.
I was also really shocked that me, something that was nothing in the past 3 ys at nanyang could lose to the almighty leevoon by only 1 mark, thus becoming the 2nd gep in nanyang and 4th in school. But after getting over the happy part of it, I said to myself "275 only...."
Maybe it isn't in my nature to ever be satisfied. ever, no matter how well I do and how hard I try.
Congratulations to everyone because, though this is very clished, everyone is a winner in themselves. Whether we have tried or not, at least we went for it and dint play truant during the exams. Let put a hand for ourselves for the fact that we actually bothered going for the exams and for some of us, working for it.
*drumroll plus applause*
YAY YAY YAY. We are being applauded! loll
Yep. and lastly, congrats to everyone who in their opinion, did well. esp jieru! you got 271! woots
and to those who did not do very well, in their opinion, it isn't the end of the world. Funny how 3 digits are so important to us. Ok, I admit I will be sad if I did not do fine. I dono if there is a way to console u guys? ok. time wil heal all wounds, though this is barely an wound.
Just fly on in that sky we call our home, that place called a playground, a naval base, our everything.
-believe in the impossible and be happy! (((:
