Tuesday, November 14, 2006 6:34 PM
I haven't posted for so many days. diao. I realsie almost all of my posts have that or something around that line at the start. Been kept busy by so many things. But somehow, it has all come out quite well. This is gona be longg since it shall have to cover activities of so many days. Actually, I realise that although I didn't post for more than 1 day, only Monday's activities are worth mentioning. Not all joyful but all memorable. A little disapointing but worth relating. Afterall, what you all see there and what I see here is totally different, sometimes abit funny. (((: Ok, what am I talking about mans. find out soon!
Monday
[debate]
We were draggily and I tink excitedly walking up those stairs beside the lifts then Janet or Chanwei or smone came and informed me that bs did not prepare his speech and he only found out the motion today. Okay the latter was what he said but it was an exxageration I tink. Actually, I wrote his one and only substantive plus elaboration for him and sent through msn, but somehow he dint do anything with it. So, we were getting all uptight and started last minute choinging once we reached class. ok, maybe only we were getting uptight, he was still relaxing as usual, how characteristic.
Then suddenly someone came up and told us debators to go down sicne it was going to start then. But we were so shocked we thought it was some mistake, turned out it wasn't. Made situations worse than it was before. We hadn't even started elaborating on bs substantive. So oh wells, we just ran down and hoped to choing downstairs while they did all the testing out of bell and so on.
A little bit of luck since they needed technical help. So sicne I sat beside bs and I knew the stuff cos I had written it out at home, I had to dictate to him from scratch. hrm. sicne I souldnt remember anythign except the examples from the file I did at home. So about 10 minutes of anxious chionging while evryone setteld down and we finally finished. To think he still had time for jokes. Then the both of us started to practise ourselves and if I am not worng chanwei was damn nervous. Oh well, luckily he wasnt first speaker of the WHOLE debate, which was janne la.
Then some introduction and funny mistakes by andrea then it started. Since I was the 2nd last speaker of the whole debate, wasnt really that nervous and the start. Jst hoping that we wouldnt screw up and watching the judges' expressions. Hmm sometimes it gives some clues. Our group did okay though Janet did stutter abit and could hear her nervousbreath from the mike and bs fumbled about his words at the end and ended with "im very sorry" instead of "thank you". Funny but not very debate-ly correct. but aw wells. After bs then I started getting nerved up. Like since its finals. Then we had this damn funny flaw session where everyone who came up opposed against the proposition and we were quite glad la. So we didnt really get a chance to go up n answer. teehees.
Then it was my turn, never really used a mike stand before so fumbledwith the adjusting. Then from time to time my hand would move pu to the mike and adjust it juts for fun, since my hadn seemed quite useless dangling by the side of my legs. then I tink I had sufficient eye contact, though there could have been more la. but I dint want to take the risk. I shook a little so sometimes my voice was loud and sometimes soft, sorry bt that. Then ended quite safely and went back. They said I did well but aw, I guess everyone says that. I would say I did average. Then cheryl went up and delivered her speech with a british accent, nice one though.
They went out to make their decision and then we just stood up and played around. I was still shaking a little though. ): Then cls had some singing by rich and darren which was abit the hilarious. the meesiam maihum song. then the results came n they announced it as 6m who won. Janet totally screamed, hmm. Ok not screamed but shrieked. I was quite sad too, esp after the voting seemed to sa we won but well, we are in front o ppl so cant really react that greatly eh. So just clapped for 6m, and clapped for cheryl who was bes speaker. Yeah she deserved it, ten times more than me.
So we got this quite decent looking medal though i owuld so have liked it to be gold instead to silver. bleahs. The dbte was over, thats a consolation. No more fretting over substantives. But nevertheless it was a great experience.
[shopping]
We went to bugis for xmas shopping. woots! Bought I tink 5 or 6 presents. yay. book for cheryl, shirt for amanda, shirt for hilary, belt for jean, belt for jingting and I tink thats all fr ystds shopping. Took mrt back and ate a pathetic dinner. Didnt look forward to the awfully horrible day of graduation rehearsals. tts today!
today
So boring. Sat in the hall, practised bowing and saying thankoo. Sheesh and I was so bored. Hopefully tmr will be better. I hope I don cry tomoro. Cos if one person cries then a few ppl will cry and the whole lot will do the same. I don want ot in my small way contribute to tears of other ppl. And plus that, crying causes a bad flu, feels damn irritating. But if everyone is crying i shall just follow the crowd la. If not i SHALL just try and control myself. But nevertheless there will be alot of hugging.
Sorry to all that I should be to. If there were any misunderstandings, any wrondoings, forgive me. As we move on to our different paths, lead our own lives and end up not being able to keep in touch, wish each other the best. Maybe the best thing we can do now is not ot forget the memories. One night next year I may just open the gate of treasured flashbakcs and allow them to flow freely. By then, however, I may have a new group of friends. I may meet all of you occasionally when we return to nyps but somehow, its gona be weird. Like there is an imaginary wall, something preventing us from talking freely like we used to do. Whatever it is, be happy everywhere. We have to put aside our history and work towards the future. Be good in all that you endeavour and alll these years to the endless scroll of treasured moments. No full-stops I hope. (: DON CRY TMR!
-believe in the impossible
