Sunday, November 05, 2006 8:53 PM
WE LOST THE DEBATE. WE LOST IT. AND WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE MORE EXPERIENCED THAN THEM. WE LOST THE DEBATE!
okay I think I am over-reacting. I am not all that devastated about it. Though I am abit disapointed, it will not discourage me in doing what I should be doing tomorrow till thursday. Yeah sure we did lose the debate. After the 2 hours of preparation the night before it, I believed that we perhaps could win. I mean, before we started doing our last-minute preparation, I had thought we would definitely lose. I really did believe that perhaps there was a chance, that we could just scrape through?
Then just before the results were announced, I was still hoping that perhaps by some miracle we would beat them. But no.
In fact, before the results were announced, I had known we lost. Just that I wanted to so badly cling on to the shreds of hope. Well, hte last few shreds.
Okay, i must admit. The moment it was announced, I felt a sting, albeit a light one. My hope had shattered. But no, I could not allow myself all the disapointment. I recovered fast, well. There is always that comfortation that its afterall ONLY a small-scale inter-class thing.
Congrats to 6M though. It must have been easy seeing that we did not even prepare at all. well, does 2 hours count? They were all quite good, thouh Janne did go fast, but isn't that good? Cos there won't be such a need if they hadn't had soo many points. So congrats. esp to ryl cos she did really well. Almost as well as bs. Though i did tink he was abit philosophical about the 'control' bit. But overally, he was a trillion times better than me.
I did ask some ppl bt how i did, and from their responses, I most obviously had done badly. I mean, they sounded so "u did badly but i don wana hurt ur feelings" kinda ting. Or maybe I am overly sensitive. but then again, I may never know.
but I tink our first failure has woken us all up from our most beautiful dream. So I am almost sure that we will prepare much more this time than last time. I think we will do better, even if we still lose. But at least we will try. However the main difference is that we wil all have completely different roles. Apparently, Mrs O said that we lost cos we put all the wrong ppl in all the wrong roles. So we tried a change, which I hope is for the better. I am now 4th speaker.
Once we get the motion tomorrow, we shall have to think of substantives all day long. Perhaps it isn't nice during preparation, but it wil be worth it if we win. And I hope we do. Cos I want to win for the glory that comes with it, but more importantly the joy that comes within when I win.
-believe in the impossible
