Thursday, December 07, 2006 7:29 PM
haha. I have a new keyboard, and it has a red light, i mean, the keys do. So I can type in the dark, so cool eh. It looks kinda robottish, though. Nevermind, I am not really into keyboards and stuff, but now I can use the computer while my mother is sleeping, since this is ratehr silent when I tap on thsoe keys. But teh gaps between one key and another is a little wider, so I am using this post to get used to it!
I have a new conviction, and that is to be happy every minute of the day. Life is too shrot to be wasted on tears and depression. I find that it actually isn't hard to be happy. Just force a smile and somehow we will believe that we really are happy. For now, I just want to be able to multi-task. On one hand, I want to be good in everything that I do, so I must put in effort, and I also want to enjoy myself while doing it. I believe it is possible, because I gain satisfaction when I do something well, and in contrast, am sad when I don't. I know that as the person I am, I need to continually expect and strive for the best in myself. The day that I do not continue having higher and higher expectations is the day that I wil fail and be an aimless freak. I want to shine like the stars of the universe, except that I want to shine exceptionally brightly.
But I know that I will mnot use unscrupulous means, at least I hope I am not mutilated to become like that. Soemtimes, our surroundings to change us without us knowing. I do not want to sink into that endless abyss and be beyond recovery. But I know that for now I am as HIGH as I can be. Soon I will be in my rightful home, the palce where I belong, my sactuary and haven. It is where everyone should be, because no one will be sad there. Ironically it is blue and blue is known as a sad colour to most people. But I think it is more like a deep colour, and consists of a little bit of powdery white at some places. White is a pure colour, while blue is an emotional one. Maybe that is why I am most suited to blue. Okay, enough about all this crpa philosophical, must be boring you all out.
in about 2 hours I will be leaving for the airport to fly to korea! yay. Will be there till next thursday. By right it should be next friday cos I will only arrive 1am in the morning. I believe I will enjoy myself! yay I am finally going to experience winter. So, during my absence, please continue tagging, and I will read them and reply when I am back. Forgive me for not updating cos I am busy playing in teh snow! Oh the joy of seasonal changes!
Enjoy yourselves to those who are going aboard like me, and work hard at whatever you are doing if you are not. Remember to do some fps for those who are involved. Do not query me about this cos I am not going to explain it. But I just want to let you know that I am not a lunatic obsessed with fps and digging up bergana. I am NOT. It is a new thing altogether. Jiayou the 3 of you, we must do well! And lastly, before I go, I wish myself bon voyage. Will psot very long after I come back to compensate and to update all of you peeps about the trip!
PS: I compelted 3 oil paintings! all fruits, but well I just started learning mah. They are not evry nice la, but acceptable. Will take pictures and update them upon my return! In the meantime, I am going to think about my new year goals, though they often are not fulfilled. But ah well, I think I alr have some idea... help me think a little bit! thanks. ((((((((:
