Sunday, January 25, 2009 2:08 PM
such a huge change has come over me it's really scary at times. but at others it's just wonderful i'm so appreciative that i made the decisions i did and that i'm like this today. it may not be much but it's alot more than the years ago. i'm starting to be so much more observant sensing all sorts of things around me, feeling weird emotions when i see some seemingly simple ordinary things, wanting to draw so many things that i see around me that i can't concentrate on shopping because there are so many drawable things around!
suddenly everything around me is so art and all i want to do is art but there's no time no time thre's so many other things that i need to do. and to think 2 years ago i was totally regretted taking up sap because it was taking up my time and i was horrendous at it. but now i've improved things are so much better i'm really feeling art more now:D even though sap hasn't helped me it's just the exposure to other people like this and things like this i guess. shiyin shawna thankyou:D I feel like i have so much to say about all of this i want to draw draw draw and i'm starting to ramble. but i guess this is the sort of happiness you feel when you. see the light?
photosphotosphotos so inspiring i need to work really really hard and i want to so i can get better and better and i hope this inspiration lasts. because i used to feel glimpses of it but it always did run away and now it's so much bigger so good. k i'm obviously crazy shall stop the art topic here and draw later. but there are other things to say
rolloffs were yesterday and they pretty much sucked. I read krystal's post about it and i pretty much agree that's how i feel as well. but no i shall not post sad things here to ruin the happiness up there! the best thing about art is that it distracts you from everything else. when i fail in bowling i tell myself that art matters so much more. which it does anyway. i guess i do still want to bowl well. but that doesn't matter as much anymore. i just don't like the feeling of uselessness that overcomes me for that briefest moment. thankgod it's so brief:D
and it's newyear's eve awesome awesome. i feel like everything's a newbeginning now for me. i want to hold on to this feeling forever.
thankyou to those that matter. for everything!
today is such a rambly reflective day. happy newyear's eve everyone
And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won’t go away today
Will you think that you’re all alone
When no one’s there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary
