Friday, May 22, 2009 8:54 PM
I think I'm really going to start blogging regularly now that I'm free-er. EVERYTHING'S OVER NOW but yet I don't feel much of a change anyway. Maybe cos I was more relaxed over exams this time I think this is the right spirit? to care but not too much keep awesome balance. except the bad thing is that, with this kind of spirit I don't really experience much after-exam-happiness anymore.
art SoVA was yesterday it was the longest test I've ever had!! and 9 essays in 2 hours I think my hand was spasming after that. Shawna said I was like some chicken(?) pecking on the table. heh k I'm glad this is over with I don't like art analysis it's one of the worst parts of art :/well, it's over for one entire year now I'm pretty glad. OUR ART EXAMS SHOULD BE EXHIBITIONS. they should give us 6 months to prepare an exhibition at some cool place please. and our assessors should be critics and the public right? okay enough about SAP it's not all that interesting to talk about. sometimes I wonder what I'm still doing there!
open house Richard's stuff is all done! I think we pulled everything off relatively well? considering everything was so last-minute hahaha. after today I feel very guilty for ever criticising or thinking anything horrible k i will never tell others what i thought it's too horrible to be mentioned. but yes I'm so guilty. I guess we would have been able to make it so much better if we had more time, but it's not bad for less than 2 days' effort:D thanks CADs!
I feel like I'm losing myself!
(oh anyway just before you read on and start thinking I'm a directionless sad kid, this is purely amusement though it's real I think it's funny and I'm not sad or anything)
FOR THE WHOLE OF MY LIFE I've been that person who sucked at science couldn't do it hate it found it gross whatever. and then last year i decided to be stupid and normal and take trip science history and up till now some people still ask me why the hell I made that decision. But I was being a coward and being stupid so mmmhm:D
but now all of a sudden, science is getting to me more easily I can understand it better! which is very different okay for the whole of my life science was like some alien language to me. at least now it's um hokkien? partial understanding.
but the more I understand science I hate it more. It's so cold so meaningless so unfeeling so pure stupid. I guess it's good that I'm finally getting a sense of Science, but my old unscience self is gone!! and science is so anti-art ):
one good thing is that I still don't get physics
that's the only science that remains alien and even more alien. and that's the most anti-art science so I guess I haven't lost myself completely!
I KNOW YOU THINK I'M RANTING RUBBISH
I finally feel the motivation to do art now. pumped up pumped up.
OH AND ADAM LOST)): I know I initially liked kris cos he's sort of good-looking. But after awhile Adam was so much more more more and he's very enigmatic handsome charming. He's too awesome to be gay!): ah well but okay nevermind I guess Kris isn't THAT bad? Adam's just better and more different.
goodbye this post took me very long I was so distracted. and I wish I could write as well as some people if I could I would be a writer and illustrate my own books but nevermind the lack of a writing gift!
